The Climb and Fall of Sisyphus

Set up to lose it all

On the cliff unwilling to let my heart fall

Shall I wait in agony and complacency

Or uproot past trauma for the world to see

A love divided

When asked my thoughts I hid

Behind walls of shame and jealousy

Impenetrable but still I scream come find me

I'm done being tested

Because the shield of white lies I've said

Is cracking I'm aching

Your spear of indifference is piercing

My heart as it's beating

My lungs fill with blood that I'm breathing

Feel my pain as I'm singing

It's not okay

Set up to lose it all

Hanging from the cliff my heart is gone

Still in my chest but frozen over

Previous betrayal remember forever

This has happened before

Trapped behind these walls where's the door

Dark and blinded I scream come find me

Because I'm still fighting

I'm cracking I'm aching

Your spear of indifference is piercing

My heart as it's beating

My lungs fill with blood that I'm breathing

Feel my pain as I'm singing

It's not okay

Set up to lose it all

Final words before I fall

So please listen closely this time...

Two years in and we lost ourselves

Too prideful to ask for guidance or help

I found peace in drugs and sleep

Oblivious even though you've been watching me

Have you been wandering in your dreams

Here's your chance to make it reality

I'm ready to set it all free

I'm weightless and floating

Your spear of indifference is dissolving

Another scar that I'm surviving

My heart is starving

In the cycle i’m cursed to keep repeating

Breathing and bleeding

Solitude is the underlying feeling

Keeping me from opening up completely

I’ll see you on the climb back up